Some days, I can begin writing and it just flows. Other days, or weeks, I can try… and it just jams up. The thoughts are there, all bubbling up and trying to spill over, but it isn’t working. And I just. Can’t. Write.
I find that writing is an escape for me. It’s odd, because it is something that I really disliked as a child and as a teenager, all through school, everything. And now, I just love it. It brings me joy, I find happiness in writing about things I love, I feel better after I have written about things that trouble me, and it is a place where I can go to whenever I am happy, or sad.
And then I have weeks like this past one. It was pretty up and down; everything started well and was going smoothly, then a few small issues popped up. It took a few days to work through some of them, and along with those, came another anxious and particularly depressive episode. I felt I wasn’t coping, regardless of where I was, be it at work where I couldn’t keep my emotions together, or at home where I didn’t have to keep it together but where nothing seemed to work out for me. Through all of this, I have been wanting to write about things. I have about 4 current drafts for my blog, and I am still unsure of which one is going to happen first! This one? One on Christian topics? One just about life? Others? But for days now I have wanted to escape into this place, this zone, where I can just write… and it flows. What happened?? I have the thoughts and ideas, the train of thought steams through, and then when I try to get a glimpse into the carriages of thoughts… it carries on straight past me. Is it because I can’t think? Or perhaps I’m not talented in the areas I had hoped? Or maybe it is just an off week. Maybe I need some fresh ideas. I have even been considering doing “interviews” with people; other mothers, or fathers, Christians, or non-Christians, students, other people who struggle with anxiety or depression or a different sort of mental illness, just to chat about life and get other perspectives on it. It is always so great to hear other people’s stories!
On that note, is there anyone who would potentially be interested in doing an interview with me? I would absolutely LOVE feedback here guys, I’m reaching out to YOU for some help! I’m going to attach a contact form below this post, so that you can respond to me… I’d love to hear back, it would be great if we could make this page more interactive and have a little more engagement 🙂
I’d also just like to let you know that I am open to requests on topics… if you have a particular question, be it about me, or life, or faith, mental health, work, challenges, trees, people’s second favourite colours, clouds, anything 🙂 If you have something you want to ask, or hear about, or have my opinion on it, fire me a message and I’d be more than happy to chat or potentially dedicate a post towards what you’re wanting to hear!
This isn’t flowing so well tonight, so I’ll sign off here. But I just want to say again… I’d love to hear from you, and I am open to chats about anything at all!
Trust everyone is having a beautiful weekend. Contact form is below image at the bottom of the post 🙂
Till next post,
Julie xo
